Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Rest In Peace Heath...

"This is it."

"This cannot be it, this is a set up. I mean, I know it's downtown L.A. but seriously, this warehouse??? Look at those creepy dudes over there, I'm not getting out, they'll kidnap me."

Crates of oranges had spilled out of what looked like a run down truck and covered the street with a slick of orange light in the sun, and shady characters stared at my friend and I letting us know we were completely out of place.

"Shut up and get out of the car, this is it."

Earlier that afternoon my friend and I sat on the floor of our apartment watching talk shows and shoving spoonfuls of Lucky Charms into our mouths when my phone rang, it was my agent;

"Hey....Ok, I know it's last minute but- I have something for you ....You guys are broke, well, you won't really make that much money, but it's a free meal and maaaybe....$25 bucks?"
He knew he'd get me at "free meal" but I needed some more details.
"What is it?"

"A music video for Ben Harper.....and Heath Ledger is directing it. It's super low budget, and last minute, but they need a couple dancers. Heath is really trying to get into directing and this is his first video....he's doing it as a favor for Ben. That's why there isn't a lot of money involved."

"HEATH FUCKING LEDGER?! WHAT?! SHUT YOUR MOUTH! YES I'LL DO IT. WE'LL DO IT."

Now, here I am, downtown l.a. about to get mugged. I hesitantly knock on the outside of a dirty garage door..... There weren't any REAL doors to be found.
I hear people and the garage starts to lift.....

"Hi! I'm Heath! You must be the dancers!" As if I had no idea who even was, even though I'd been obsessing over him since 10 Things I Hate About You.

He stretched out his hand with a firm handshake and smiled.
"Um, you can just go sit on that couch over there, maybe show me what clothes you brought and we'll get started in a minute...Thank you guys SO much for coming, really."

Typical Hollywood protocol involves a crew, wardrobe, catering, production assistant, gaffers, cameramen, assistants to the assistants, etc. I surveyed the room...and it seemed everyone else had, taken the day off?? Half the time you didn't SEE the director let alone speak to him.
6 dancers, 2 cameramen, 1 assistant, Heath, and Ben.

Here he comes....I love him, I love him, I love him. -ok, be professional.

"K uh. So, this is my first time directing. I came up with the concept- I just really loved the song and Ben is a friend so I wanted to do it. I want it to be really organic. Wear lose fitting clothes, maybe earth tones......and you're just going to improv." He was so passionate, so excited and....
Improv?! Holy hell. I'm going to make a jackass out of myself in front of a creative genius.

"I used to modern dance, in Australia and I want it to be....well, like this sort of."
This Academy Award nominated actor starts dancing, swinging his arms, exploring levels, high and low, closing his eyes....
"See? Do you guys have any questions?.....Ok, so how about we start with you??"

He's pointing at me, dear Lord, he's pointing at me- acknowledging my existence.
"SURE!!" I just screamed, tone it down Chels, tone it down.

I jump on the stage, the smoke machine starts blowing, my palms are sweating and Heath jumps up next to me, he crosses his legs and grabs onto both ankles like a little boy....
"So.....do you have any suggestions for me??"

Did he really just ask if I had suggestions for him?! Me? some chick dancing for a mere 25 dollars, some stranger, and he wants my advice? This was the humblest thing I'd ever seen in Hollywood.
"Uhm....no?"

"Ok...." He's staring at my face....studying it. "Can you take your hair down? There and flip your head over, tousle it a bit...."
I shake my hair out and he reaches towards me, putting both hands in my hair, scratching my scalp and giving it that messy look.
"Beautiful."
The music starts....my hearts beating and I start to move. 2 minutes pass like nothing, I was "in it", I was going to perform and get lost in the music just as he had in all of his performances.... the song ends and silence fills the room.

I peer up and Heath is standing at the end of the stage....he grabs my hand with both of his, looks my straight in the eye and says, "That was brilliant. Really inspiring....I got chills. Thank you."

I am in love.
He continues with the next dancers, demonstrating movement occasionally- eventually splitting his pants, but he continued anyway. He experimented with lights and smoke, showing his excitement when something worked perfectly. Then we broke for lunch....
I station myself on the dusty warehouse floor and he sits on the ground next to myself and the other dancers, immediately striking up conversation as if we were longtime friends.

"I LOVE GRANOLA." I blurt out as I devour handfuls at a time.
"That should be a a shirt...you know, like one of those quirky shirts with sayings, that's funny."
His voice was charming, a slight Australian accent making words like quirky sound; quirky.

The 7 hours passed quickly and he graciously thanked each and everyone one of us, making eye contact and profusely thanking us for the inspiration. He pulled his wallet out and handed us each a hundred bucks.
"I know it's not much...."

I didn't care. The experience was priceless.

Heath (and Ben) was one of the humblest people I have ever met. Unaffected. Warm. Genuine. He listened when people spoke, watched intently, and had the most positive, serene energy. I am blessed to have worked with him in his short life, and it is a tragedy he didn't get to continue on making incredible films and inspiring us all.

The result of his first and last music video was beautiful, organic and modest. I am honored to have been a part of it....in loving memory;


100 comments:

Katelin said...

What a great experience! It's so sad that he's gone, but at least you have that story to keep :)

ruby said...

wow --- what a great memory. so special.


it's such a sad, weird day.

lspoon said...

It's so real when you read about experiences like you just wrote about. That's so amazing and it's wonderful that you have such a great memory of someone gone long before their time.

HollyG said...

Wow. How beautifully written this post was...I'm so glad I read it. Heath has put a lot of beauty out into the world, and it is so nice of you to give a little bit back. I can't stop thinking about his daughter.
By the way, when I opened your page "On Your Porch" started playing. That is one of my favorite songs ever and oddly perfect as a memorial.

Princess Consuela Banana Hammock said...

that was beautiful. just beautiful.

Alexis said...

Beautifully put.

I was so shocked and sad to hear the news today. He was such a gifted man, and I always loved seeing interviews with him because he seemed so genuine (and like you said, he really was).

I feel like I'm on repeat, all I can say is how stunned I am by the news. What an amazing experience you got to have with such a cool guy.

Damsel in Digress said...

what a beautiful story, chelsea.

the news - i found it out right before i left my office and it struck me. who knows how and why we develop the attachments we do to public figures but i reacted. perhaps more strongly than makes sense. perhaps because it's always difficult to hear of someone whose life ended too soon, someone with so much talent and who captured so many hearts.

thank you for sharing your memory. it's a very beautiful homage (for lack of a better word) to him. and this ben harper song? it's always been a favorite of mine but i had never seen the video. and i'm so happy i got to see it knowing all this. it's so moving. are you the dancer at 1:34?

Lacey Bean said...

Beautiful song, beautiful dancing, beautiful writing.

I wish I knew which one was you!!

ttcmb said...

What a great memory. I was shocked to find out he died. He was a very talented man and, from your experiences, he sounds like a good man. He will be missed.

Jamie Lovely said...

This is an amazing story, Chelsea. It's just so sad. I really don't want to believe it was drugs and that it was just pneumonia like they were saying. He was such a talent. It seems like such a waste :(

m said...

what a lovely elegy. you wrote so beautifully of that experience; what a great memory to share after someone's too-soon death. and gorgeous dancing.

Sizzle said...

what a special experience you had with him. he seems like he was a sincere and sweet man. it's very sad that he is gone so early from life. and i feel so sad for his daughter.

that video is beautiful.

ablogofherown said...

Beautiful Chelsea, the video, the dancing, and the post.

I'm a bit jealous you got to meet him, 10 Things I Hate About You was my go-to movie of my high school career.

Vanessa said...

That was an amazing experience and great video. Its horifically sad that another light has been taken from us too soon.

Lisa said...

Very cool! Thanks for sharing your experience and the video.

Lisa H. said...

Your post was beautiful, and so is that video.

1218Blog said...

Thanks so much for sharing that story. I knew he was as warm and humble as he appeared to be. How lucky for you to have met him in his short but memorable life.

On an entire separate subject you've been tagged!

pbandrazz said...

Wow, that was a great story. It definitely made it all the more real to me....such a shock today.

Meghan said...

Thank you for sharing your personal experience with us. It's a beautiful story and music video/song.

Jess said...

This is so sweet, and in light of what happened today, so sad. I'm glad you got to have that experience of him.

ana said...

Beautiful post, and the video is great, the dancing et all. May he rest in peace....

ablogofherown said...

Also, i tagged you in a survey!

wondy woman said...

I am so glad you had that experience, and that he was everything that I would have hoped him to be. You treasure that, people like that leave little gifts when they leave - what a waste and a terrible shock.

The Ex said...

Oh I love this story. God I'm so horribly heartbroken over this. It's just...so devastating.

Let's stick together. No more dead 20somethings. That's my call.

wishcake said...

What a wonderful story. Thank you for sharing this! I kind of always figured that's exactly the type of person he'd be. And what an incredibly talented guy - I'm so genuinely moved by that video.

When I found out, I was at work, and I sort of stared at the screen for a minute, not comprehending it. So tragic, so unnecessary. The world of "celebrity" certainly isn't all it's cracked up to be.

And right now, all I can think of is his daughter. My prayers are certainly with his family...

A.P. said...

what an amazing time you got to share with him. it's so tragic about his death. thanks for sharing your story.

Slutty McWhore said...

Wow, I didn't even realize he'd died until I read your blog post. That's such a shame. I don't normally care for actors (especially blond ones) but his performance in "Brokeback" was phenomenal.

brandy said...

It's hard to think of something that hasn't already been said here. I will just say that everyone else is right- this is a beautiful, beautiful post and I'm thankful that you shared it. It's nice to hear that he was the person I imagined him to be.

Princess Pointful said...

It is so nice to put a real person to all this hype in the media. This whole thing just makes me so sad, and I can't figure out why-- he just somehow seemed different from the Hollywood machine, and I'm so glad you confirmed that.
It doesn't help matters that the song makes me teary eyed on the best of days.

Exposed said...

Thank you for a glimpse of the person that fans sensed was behind the persona. A beautiful tribute showing the artistic and personal imprint he left behind.

nicoleantoinette said...

Everything I'm thinking has been said, and I don't want to repeat, but your post just moved me so much that I had to tell you: I think you're incredible, in so many different ways.

Tia said...

it's a sad day when a light like his goes out.

i know that sounds corny but it's still true.

and that video was beautiful and simple and i really loved it.

sequined said...

I'm glad you shared that. It's much more moving and real that the factual news stories about his death. Now should be a time to honor his life.

And I love this video; that must have been such a fun experience.

Maxie said...

That experience sounds amazing.

It's sad to know that someone who was so down to earth is now gone.

Justin Jones said...

that was great.

the song was great, the video was great, your story was awesome..

and for real -- a sad, sad loss.

bohemiangirl said...

I've always loved that video - I can't believe you were in it. And I couldn't believe the headlines yesterday, when I read about his death. So sad. Thank you for sharing a very human story about him. Beautiful!

ashley said...

that really was beautiful. wow.

thestoryofagirl said...

When I heard, I kept watching the news to see if they were kidding. Like, He can't really be gone. How could we lose out on such a great talent. I think it's such a great tragedy, like we haven't seen in a long, long time. And that video, so beautiful. We have truly lost a great talent.

Elise said...

Its sad that he's gone, but you have a great memory to hold on to xx

Raven said...

That's amazing.

Thank you for sharing it.

emmaenlighted said...

I couldn't believe when I heard the news, I thought it was a joke. Cool video girlie.

Andrea said...

Wow, that is so special. What a great guy, it seemed, he was.

Britt said...

What a neat experience! You have done the coolest things girl!

ChasingParadise said...

I'm so jealous that you got to meet him! I had the biggest crush on him. I was so sad to hear about this yesterday...it's so hard to believe. I think a lot of people will miss him.

What a wonderful memory for you to have. Thank you for sharing it with us.

Boo said...

This was so beautifully written and personal, I had to link to it. I hope you don't mind!

Thank you for sharing this.

Hiya, I'm Kristie. said...

What a lovely story. It's odd how strangely I'm affected by his death.

Julie_Gong said...

how lucky to have a beautiful experience like that with anyone...

Barrie said...

Thank you for sharing this memory.

A Margarita said...

Wow, that was beautiful. It's surreal that he's gone. I was a huge fan.

Julie Q said...

we definitely lost a very talented guy.. and thats a beautiful video

Virginia said...

That is such a cool story! I'm going to have to watch the video later...since, you know, my computer here at work has no speakers. *sighs heavily*

Nilsa S. said...

That's a really amazing experience and a very heartfelt tribute. Thank you.

BV said...

How lucky you were to experience that?

It's not everyday we meet people we can talk to or connect to. It's really neat that it was Health Ledger.

Captain Backfire said...

Holy cow, I can't believe how talented he was a director, too. What was in the video so perfectly matched what the music was doing. How lucky you are to have experienced that.

Michelle said...

beautiful video. and song. ben harper is one of my all time faves. that is awesome that you were able to be a part of that!

raistlinbrown said...

Thank you so much for sharing this amazing experience on such a sad day. There just aren't words for this loss.

Camels & Chocolate said...

So cool. And great video. In my years of interviewing celebrities, sadly he never made the list =(

PrincessPolly said...

I think when something tragic happens to someone in the public eye it sometimes strikes such a chord with us because then we realise that it can happen to anyone. Sometimes it's like celebrities seem immune to all this death stuff - and they're really not. They're normal people just like the rest of us - but I don't think anything shows that more clearly than this post, he just sounded like a really nice and genuine guy and I'm probably more upset reading this than I have been reading any of the news articles about it. Thanks for sharing it!

Boho Girl said...

i am so very moved by this.

ethereal.
beautiful.

thank you for sharing your intimate experience with Heath.

Im off to save the world, NAIRB said...

Great story. Great. Great story.

Schmoops said...

this is really touching.

thank you so much for sharing such a heartfelt tribute to one of the true talents in hollywood.

that video and song are gorgeous.

xoxo

Justin Davis Davanzo said...

thanks for sharing that...what an amazing memory for you....I think this may be one of the few actors in my time besides River Phoenix, that really had an effect on me when they passed...Great video and fitting words.

Anonymous said...

What an awesome post! The media blitz is driving me crazy and I wish there were more stories like this out there. Thank you for sharing!

Marcheline said...

Thanks for telling your story. I have never been a huge HL fan, but somehow his death has hit me pretty hard anyway, just because he seemed like such a decent fellow. Someone who this would never happen to.

It pisses me off that people like Paris Hilton, Britney Spears, and Amy Crackhouse are still using up valuable oxygen while someone like him goes down too soon.

- M

So@24 said...

So lucky you got to partake in a project with one of the few greats.

Anonymous said...

that was a wonderful story. thank you.

just me said...

holy shit, girl.


That's amazing. Seriously.


I knew I was missing out on 50% of life by not being a dancer...

Alexis said...

I just, I'm still sad about it and really liked your post about it and came back to read it again...my brain is refusing to really wrap itself around this...

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

I just want to say thank you to all of you who have taken the time to read this.

I feel that the media has delt with it in a very tactless way, and not reflecting on his life as an incredible actor, etc.

I hope that I could shed some positive light on such a tragic situation.

Thank you for your comments,I really, really appreciate it.

Anonymous said...

Very pretty, thank you for sharing that. I generally don't watch music videos unless they're just the artist singing or they have dance in them. Too much art direction generally saps the strength of a song, but not here. Heath really had an eye for beauty and a respect of musicians; I like the way that you can see the strings being played, not just heard.

Lynn said...

Oh man that sounds amazing. This whole thing is just so sad..

Christine said...

beautiful story. this news is making me irrationally sad.

blazedanielle said...

Thank you for your sweet comment on my blog! I really enjoy your blog and will definitely stop by again! :) Thank you for sharing this post today. What a great memory!

Nico said...

This post is soooo worth noting. This is the kind of stuff people should share, especially about good people who have passed.

xpreshun said...

I found this through someone else. and thought this was beautiful what you said. Goes to show the affect that people have on you even after they are gone. Beautiful, just beautiful. Because of that...if you have a myspace. Add me...I want to be your friend. myspace.com/xpreshun. Thank you. that made my day.

Anonymous said...

As a New Yorker living in Oz, the one good thing has been an insight into Aussie culture. "Our Heath" is the subject of all radio and TV. Everyman is taking over the media with well wishes for the family in Perth, WA and fond remembranace of there once quick encounter in a Sydney pub. He truly is a national icon.

Now, "we" just hold out hope that "Our Nic" and "Our Keith" have a happy and healthy child.

Anonymous said...

Beautiful. Brava. Beautiful.

Heidi said...

That isn't a music video, it is art. What a beautiful piece of work. You should be so happy that you had such a wonderful and memorable experience. I just hope more people read this entry so he is remembered as such and not the way they are painting the picture for "who he was".

Jenny DeMilo said...

He was a genuine man. I had the please of meeting him a few times and he was always kind to those around him. the great thing is your experience wasn't unique, it wasnt a fluke... he was truly a nice person.

so hard to find that in "hollywood"

he will be missed.

Dolce said...

Chelsea, this video is beautiful. What a wonderful experience and opportunity. Memories like this really only happen once in a lifetime. I'm very happy you were able to have just a wonderful one.

Joanna Goddard said...

i love that. thank you.

Le Petit Chic said...

Oh my gosh, what a wonderful memory. I was so saddened to hear of his passing.

Ecky said...

It's wonderful story and experience, you are so lucky to experience that before he's gone.

I'm so shocked when I heard the news, he's such a talented actors.

May he rest in peace.

Pomegranate said...

You lucky thing! Its great that u have a wonderful REAL memory of him, whereas we have artistic memories that will hopefully live on forever :)

Jessie Cacciola said...

thanks for sharing this -- beautiful story, beautiful song, and beautiful video...a perfect memorial for a great man.
- Jessie -

Anonymous said...

That was just beautifully written. My heart hurts that someone so creative and giving is gone. Thank you for sharing you story, it made me heart smile.

mcgee said...

what a fantastic story and a beautiful video.

Kayleigh said...

Wow, this story gave me chills and brought me close to tears. The video is absolutely beautiful. I can't even imagine what it must feel like to be a part of it.

Bianca Reagan said...

Oh my goodness. That's so cool!

Marni Tiani Self said...

I loved Heath. I still can't believe that was it. :(

Lyla Lou said...

Positively beautiful, the post, the video, all of it. Gave me chills too.

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Lexa said...

What a wonderful story. You were blessed to have met him. Just a correction, though...this wasn't his last music video, he also directed another one for Ben Harper and two for the musician Nfa. Heath had also directed a video for Grace Woodruffe but I don't think that one is posted anywhere. The others you can find on wearethemasses.com.

Anonymous said...

Thanks for the blog. You are one of the fortunate ones to have met Heath. People continue to say the same things about him. He had that gift from God to touch people with his humanity and talent
I'm sorry for his family and his fans that he's gone. Stars that burn the brightest burn the fastest.
I hope you rest in peace Heath and continue to watch over the rets of us.

michelle said...

im sooo jealous!!! you are the luckiest person ever!!! heath was the most beautiful man alive. i miss him sooo much. you're story was beautiful.

raven123 said...

i dont exactly know who he is, but, i wont be surprised if you cant believe me, i had dreams about him before i knew him, and they were just the best dreams, like lord of the rings, they arent sad but they make you feel sad. i somehow know he was a great guy. great story, one of the few things of beauty left on earth

liz said...

What a beautiful memory. Thanks so much for sharing your experience with him. I know it´s not like I knew him personally or anything, but the films I have seen him in I just thought he was an incredible actor. And it´s so nice to hear that he was such a down to earth nice guy. I know it sounds super cheesy, but this story really warmed my heart.

Cool blog, i´ll definitely be stopping by again soon.

Michele said...

i am incredibly jealous of you for meeting heath ledger. always been a huge fan, and i bawled my eyes out when i found out he had passed away. im still real sad about it! and i never even met the guy!

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lissied said...

This is just a beautiful encounter and perfectly exhibits the real Heath whom has been forever tarnished by those who have slander him and used him for their own personal gains.

 
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