Monday, June 30, 2008
Summer Drunk Love
I am completely, overboard, drunkenly, head over heels for summer.
This is the first time I've fallen so hard for it. I tend to lean towards cloudy days, scarfs and a warm mug of piping hot coffee with creme brulee creamer while some sort of melancholy music plays in the background. Amos Lee or some sad girl with a guitar usually fits perfectly and nests into me, finding it's spot. Usually, that makes me happy. I usually don't open my windows and my home is dimly lit, dark and cozy....like a little cottage. But for the past month each morning I've been throwing open the blinds, and changing immediately from my pajamas into something tiny, little shorts and or baby doll dresses.
This new love for summer I think is in direct relation to some sort of inner shift I had, I'd like to think it's an opening of some sort. When I was in LA I took for granted that is was summer everyday. It irritated me. But summer signifies people emerging out of their little shells (homes, clothes?) and going out into the sun to spend a day with the world. People want to be active. Frisbee, bike rides and swimming pools.
I'd also like to take a minute to say THANK YOU GOD for the male form. Holy, holiness. Women are beautiful creatures, but MEN they are specimens.
Summer makes me carnivorous like a human T-REX- a ravenous beast. I want to sink my teeth into a nice chunk of bicep. I caught myself staring at a man on the treadmill in front of me yesterday because I found it FASCINATING that his ASS didn't move while he sprinted. It was like a two rocks buried themselves into his gluts, then in his calf muscles and I considered asking if I could take a squeeze to see what was in there. I love bodies. Different shapes and lines. When it's summer you get to see them, and appreciate their uniqueness. I am a dirty old man, but glory, glory thank you for man space.
I'm in a really strange place right now, not sure where I'm going/what I'm doing and think because of that I have a heightened awareness for all of things that are around me RIGHT NOW. Because, I'm so uncertain of where I'm going to be tomorrow (more on that later.) Luckily, I've been given a lot of freedom but I'm inherently an indecisive person and because of that, the freedom isn't because exercised as much because I can't make the first move. I've sort of hopped on some train and decided to just go for the ride....so to speak. I haven't even been able to write...
So while I'm here- right now, I'm high, euphoric, buzzedddd on all things summer. Tan skin, smoothies, coolers full of snacks, beer the smell of BBQ. Laying in the grass while ants crawl over your arms, driving with my windows down, fresh pineapple, music festivals, and baseball games.
What are in getting drunk on this summer? (feel free to make that a literal or figurative answer)