Sunday, December 7, 2008

When things are BRIGHT.....


One day you're alone, the next you've met this incredible person who so easily and effortlessly was the exact thing you'd subconsciously been waiting for; though, completely doubtful of them actually existing and by some uncomplicated, divine hand they're placed right there at reach.

One day you're certain that this is the resting point, the point where everything just settles and this is "it." The kind of "IT" where you're not moving, you're just steadily existing in one spot....seemingly forever- when you turn on the "tune out" button and in a moment, "it" has shifted and suddenly you've opened doors and said "yes" to more than you could possibly handle. You've taken a routine and shaken it up, grabbing each little piece and carefully placing them into this new mosaic of a life you've jumped into, then standing back and admiring how well the mismatched, colorful pieces fit together...

One day it's just a dream, the next it's reality.

But it isn't a day, it isn't a single date or action.....it just feels that way. It's a combination of slight shifts in your life. The things you've said no to and the things you've said yes to without hesitation that makes it all feel like ONE DAY. The "one day" when everything just worked itself out was really a slow moving process of thoughts, actions, desires, fears.....that all come together into an acknowledgement of being.

Everything I've wanted and everything I haven't wanted has been placed in the same garden and been watered by the same powerful and contradicting energies, thought process and vibrations and thus flourished into this significantly new way of existence. Of presence.

Everything- everything I'm thankful for and the things that I'm not....I can take full responsibility for feeding...for giving the power and attention to the things that are unwanted and for believing in the things that were so desired and are satiating every intense physical and emotional yearning that I've had......

There is no limit to what we can do- to what we can have.....we are that limiting factor. Circumstance, placement, status, disadvantage...those are trivial things that, unfortunately, we graciously give too much credit, sometimes it's simply easier that way.

"The Universe is not under pressure and neither are we. The baby chick comes out of the shell when it is ready; the fruit falls from the tree when it is ripe and we transform into Spirit when the time is right....don't push the river, let it be."

I read that today and it was so perfect for everything that I'm feeling right now. The goodness that is consuming me was certainly unexpected, though all of it was planted very cautiously and tended to meticulously and optimistically....even in subtle ways when doubt was the stronger belief.

Love came when it was meant to, when I was ready for it. Music came when I trusted that I had a voice for a reason and the right people came when I was unafraid to live in all of the brilliance and spirit, inhibition and confidence that I knew was lurking behind some unnecessary and unjustified negative belief that stood, firmly, in it's way.

Our thoughts are what we plant, our energy is what we water it with....our truths are decided by what we believe, in our heart and in our minds and when the things that we believe are fed consistently with non-belief they'll stay buried under the soil until eventually, they're completely forgotten and will remain unfulfilled prophecies sitting somewhere beneath new cluttered ideas and half-hopes.

Allotting ourselves more responsibility for what grows into our lives is a powerful AND scary thought.....until you see that the good you've grown was brought into being by your own hand.........

and that, is a fucking amazing feeling.

19 comments:

Sara Jane said...

This pretty much sums up exactly how I'm feeling these days. I just haven't quite been so honest with myself about it. I still find myself having moments where I'm doubting things. I guess I'm just so scared.

This is written so elequently. Thanks for sharing.

just me said...

About time some guy realized how fucking awesome you are.

Steph said...

I am happy for you. Sounds like things are going so well for you and you deserve it!

Sarah Von said...

Lovely. Well said, lady.

d said...

Wonderfully written my dear. I am tres jealous of where you are in life right now (mostly because I thought I was there too two months ago). Enjoy it!

Katelin said...

aw this is such a sweet post. love it.

brookem said...

what a wonderfully happy post. thanks for sharing this.
xo

sid said...

Hi I'm glad that you're in this really amazing place. Hope you and this guy have years of happiness in front of you.

Sindhu said...

My first time to your blog, and wow, what a great entry I was greeted with! Exceptionally well-written with amazing nuggets of truth in there. :)

My favorite line... "Our thoughts are what we plant, our energy is what we water it with."

So true!

Catalyst said...

I absolutely loved reading this posting. You make absolutely no sense to me whatsoever, and yet (not to contradict oneself) you make so much sense to me! I had to read it three times.

I like to get back to a space of infinite possibilities and finite laws that guide proletarian cosmologists and the people that make the worlds we live in, comprehensible.

Understanding the events of culture and the sociopolitical fabric that determines the quality of life is paramount to basic existence. Understanding these factors can help predict market fluctuations and fashionable social trends. All of which should be of great interest, providing you know the language . . .

Pore yourself a glass of wine and enjoy... ;)


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2_vpEyE6rug

Not The Rockefellers said...

Beautiful smack Chelsea! :)

While reading this I could not help but think of the lovely blessing in my life that is may daughter.

Peace _ Rene

Charlie Hills said...

Are you talking about pizza? You are, right?

Gossip Girl said...

i absolutely love this post.. i love ur blog as well.. keep it up..

nicoleantoinette said...

Um, yeah. I MISS YOU.

I think that maybe, maybe, you owe me like TEN THOUSAND PHONE CALLS.

/end obscene yelling and stomping around.

xoxo

jb said...

It's about time, that someone notices that you kick some Smack Chelsea.

Very happy for you. You deserve this so run with it.

Peace
JB

Errant Gosling said...

Excellent post. Good intentions are no match for serendipity. Happy and sad, but true.

Jess said...

This is awesome. I'm glad you're feeling this way.

bernthis said...

I came across your blog through Katie's and boy am I glad I did. You are right. I don't think, we as people, take enough responsibility for our behavior and thoughts and how it affects us everyday. Thank you for the reminder that what comes into my life, has a lot to do with how I behave.

PinkPiddyPaws said...

Wowzers...that's amazing. Good on you! I hope you keep smiling like that for a very, very long time! :)

 
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