Thursday, January 8, 2009

If the bridge BLOWS, burn it. I can swim just fine.


I actually said, "FUCK YOU" to an "employer" last night. Balls? Oh sure, I have a pair but this was simply justice, for me and all the other employee's with a "fuck you" dangling by a pinkie on their tongue.

It was one of those moments when you're holding a (hypothetical) can of gasoline in your hand and and a match and the gain you'd get from actually setting the bridge on fire is better than leaving it standing. Up in flames, baby! There's only so much patronizing talk a person can take, and deserves (which is really never)- especially when its unjustified to begin with. I think when you're in your twenties you're often looked at like you're still "new to the rodeo" and sure, maybe physically you haven't been in their "specific rodeo" but rodeo or not; character, work ethic, talent, intelligence- don't have an age and sadly, are qualities lost on many "elders."

I've always believed in getting rid of your "low worth" anything; clothing, relationships, JOBS, etc. LOW WORTH meaning, whenever you wear that specific dress, the one you KNOW makes you feel like Kirstie Allie (pre and post Jenny) every time you try it on, but you keep holding out until the "day" it doesn't make you feel gigantour anymore and the elusive asshole day never shows.....

...or the relationship you know could be better, but it isn't so you wait, and wait until eventually you surrender and settle as if you DESERVE the "low worth" feelings it gives you.
Or
the job that you've shown up to everyday, dedicated like a damn nun to Jesus, loyal and doormat-y and the meetings you've endured, sitting dutifully in front of some schmucks desk with a fancy engraved name place, excessive saliva spewing from his mouth when he says the word "numbers" and talks about his children in private school after cutting your pay by half, only to "in closing" be shoved out the door stripped of any sort of dignity and feeling condescended to the point that you don't know if you actually are as smart, and deserving as you thought you were at 8am this morning before you medicated with a Venti Americano.

THAT, is the "low worth" feeling I'm talking about. The low worth things, people, thong underwear, box of crackers; whatever the fuck it is- it needs to go and if the only way to say good riddens to is to say "fuck you," then profane away. Honestly, if you're at the breaking point of directing a fuck you to someones face, they probably deserved it, unless you're Puck or any of those Real World kids who are just hotheads.

"You're lucky you can do that...." said my Dad all beaten, exhausted and sweaty on his elliptical trainer while conversing at the gym...

"Not everyone can. It's easy to walk away when you don't have as many responsibilities (i.e. spawns, mortgages).....other times you have to endure it because you don't have another choice."

And though, I understood the point he was making- very much so, I also decided; I ALWAYS HAVE ANOTHER CHOICE. LOW WORTH, simply isn't and will never be one of them.

31 comments:

Shady said...

Awesomely written and I couldn't agree with you more. I've had many moments where I realised..."F-this, run away!" and got out of crappy situations, relationships, jobs, drama, etc before it all got too much and something drastic happened instead.

xx

Ambles said...

amazing. abso-fucking-lutely amazing. hands down one of the best posts I've read in a long time.

susan said...

Good for you- there are so many times that I wish I did that and I am getting stressed out just thinking about them right now.

Matt Frost said...

I dont want to sound like an adult here... but you want to buy into this economic paradigm, while maintaining the attitude and freedom of someone individulaistic and not mainstream. Anyone having second thoughts about having indundated themselves with professional responsiblity would feel the same, no matter what the slight or insult started the revolution thoughts. Either make something of your own, or suck it for cash and independance.

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JD said...

I just love the fact that you used the word "spawns" to describe children. That makes you realize what a serious decision it is to have kids, and how it can effect your entire future, by removing options.

Gemini said...

AMEN sista! You should be a preacher... well, actually that wouldn't work, you curse too much, but it was a damn fine point!

The Odd Duck said...

I think you may just be one of my heroes now.

Erin said...

Love this

and it proves you do feel better when you say what you feel, even if what your saying is followed by 10 exclamation points and the *** symbols

L.L. said...

I couldn't agree with you more!

Sassy Molassy said...

I totally agree. If you are able to say effyou to whatever job it is that isn't up to your standards, go for it. I'm all about quality in every aspect of life. I'd rather be fully enjoying the things I do than getting by on a lot of stuff that fills the gaps. hence the reason i've stayed away from most men and relationships for a long time.

ChasingParadise said...

I think this is one of the BEST posts you've written! Of course, a tiny bit of that opinion has to do with the fact that my boss is a giant, condescending SUCKWAD who I despise. And if I could quit, I would. But I do have a mortgage payment. So I stay. Sigh...

But of course your writing on this was brilliant and I can practically see the fire emanating from you as you uttered those two words to your former employer. "Fuck You" has never sounded so good!

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

matt frost- I dont disagree?

and thank you thank you to you guys for the virtual high five. lol.

I Run in Heels said...

I love the points you make about weeding out the "low worth" stuff in your life. I've started a stack for Ebay of clothes that fall in that category. Why torture myself?

just me said...

Ew. Fuck old men who try to make you feel like shit.

Someone who's stupid will work for them.

Not you.

Katelin said...

well said! no one ever deserves low worth anything. way to speak up for yourself. woo.

irunwithscissors said...

good for you! sometimes you just have to stand up for yourself!

Rose and Jill said...

This could not be more well written
-R

TheRedThreads said...

I...I... I... I love you. You just became something of a hero to me.

I feel like that SO MUCH, and sometimes I just sit there and take it and other times, it's just too much and I look around at everyone else and think "How can we deal with this and still feel respect for ourselves?" Sometimes, you just need to raise the middle finger in salute to your self worth.

Thank you.

Miss Cellaneous said...

I awarded you the Premio Dardos Award. See here: http://quarterlifequery.blogspot.com/2009/01/awards-season-is-here.html

Kyla Bea said...

Fantastic post! I completely agree with you, I feel that way about my job and - while it's secure - I know I have to move on.

This makes me feel like that just got a whole lot cooler.

Blogstiny said...

You need to call me, I need to hear this story. I have wanted to quit my job many times, and have had to take some "low worth" scenarios, but I feel the job pays better than nearly anything I can find, and it helps the "Cause", plus my stupid spawns need to eat.

MsPuddin said...

I'm guessing you don't work there anymore?

I'm still a twenty something working up the courage to cut the man im settling for out of my life.thanks for some hopeful inspiration..;p

nicoleantoinette said...

Hi, I'm Nicole and I recently did the same thing.

xoxo

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

nicole- this is why we are one ins the same

Blogstiny- I will tell you the whole shabang. Drinks and shizzz soon/

Kern said...

Fuck yeah! Loved it. You're right and I've had to do that a few times last year with fingers flyin'. If I have nothing else at all right now at least I have dignity, self respect, and the balls to stand up for them. Keep preaching!

Exposed said...

I'd rather have low-financial worth than work for a low-life any day.

I'm giving you a great big "FUCK YEAH!" :)

Miss Marie said...

Ohmigosh, This is MY LIFE this week. I literally let go of about 10 people and they got pissed and I was all "you haven't talked to me in a year except to tell me what I was doing wrong in life"

Burn baby burn. I like swimming. :)

Narcs Killl said...

PREACH ON SISTA!

Narcs Killl said...

a good woman once said, "I'd rather have a life then a living "

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