Pooling together a shitload of pennies and shiny laundry money can buy you; a tank of gas, bratwursts, a 24 pack of Corona, a liter of Beringer Pinot Grigio, S'mores ingredients, bagels, condoms, about 25 pounds of trail mix, (which was entirely consumed by moi), a wicked sunburn and wilderness sex.
I forgot to mention, we were also sleeping in bags, braving tornado warnings and peeing in trees, this act is also known as; camping.
This is no Ritz with poolside bottles of Veuve, this is actually where mosquitoes crawl up your Va-jay and bears eat your face off.
Amidst the complete chaos of not knowing where my paycheck is going to come from every given month I've decided to have fun anyway....-wait, back up, I see confused faces- yes, I DO several freelance jobs that pay and mostly pay well, but if you freelance you also know that means; we pay when we it suits us, so suck down some rice cakes and live in poverty, or start go-go dancing on the side. My ass needs about 34,000 hours more of spinning before I make that leap and because my spinning teacher insists on playing Vanilla Ice that's not gonna happen- so poverty, Coinstar and creatively doctored rice cakes for dinner it is!
...I digress; The point is, My Love and I are feeling it....we're feeling the consequences of choosing a rocky path instead of a straight one. We're not going out for dinner, we're cooking each other Ramen and taking advantage of happy-hour two for ones.
When you're broke and you're in love, you spend more time looking into each others eyes than looking at wine lists. When you're broke and you're in love you spend more time reading each other Flannery O'Conner short stories, than going to movies and watching stories. You spend more time at BBQ'S with your families, than hosting a BBQ at your home with friends.
When you're broke and you're in love you talk about the "someday" you'll be able to visit the Greek Islands and cross off your list of "If I had 15 More Days to Live I would......."
You talk about the day you'll be able to pay off student loans and buy saffron strands and ground turkey without feeling like you're breaking the bank. You talk about your future home; wood or terracotta floors? You talk about buying building a wine rack from scratch and the kinds of flowers you'll have in your garden; poppies, sweet peas, lilac, peonies and hydrangeas.
When you're broke, you're musicians and you're in love you visualize the day you'll perform at Red Rocks, how nervous you'll be when you collaborate with Chris Martin, what the tour bus will look like, the day we negotiate my Maxim deal for my cover (yes- I'd totally do it) and who we'll thank on our CD insert.
When you're broke and you're in love, you spend more time sitting outside than you ever will, because it's the one beauty that's free.
When you're broke and you're in love you have NOTHING but SELF to show for....and actually, that's exactly what makes the love feel as strong as STEEL.
When you're broke and you're in love you brainstorm, you dream, you reveal your vulnerabilities and you call PBR and Granola a "Feast." When you're broke and you're in love you don't "do brunch", you don't plan weekends away in Santa Fe to do foodie things and look at art, you don't bring the best wine to potlucks, you don't express your love through reservations, suit jackets, necklaces and bouquets- but through moments walking down Denver's streets and clutching the only tangible thing you have...... each other.
When you're broke- you're tested, you're scratching, you're digging and you're hopping something, anything, HITS. You're shameless, you're worn and you're willing. When you're in love- you're stupid, you're bold, you're hopeful and you're blind. When you're in love AND you're broke, you're the perfect combination of blissfully optimistic....hence, paying for vacations in change, Googling your dream wedding dress and beleiving in your one option, no backup plans.
When you're broke and in love you fantasize about you're future wedding dress, the ring, the honeymoon and the menu- even though you can barely buy gas and your current menu is processed and packaged.
When you're broke and in love you dream about walking down the aisle, beaming, complete, awaiting life as a couple, your dreams actualized and a vanilla buttercream frosting cake to cut while wearing one of these;
Dear Monique Lhuillier, I love you.
You make it happen. When you're broke and you're in love, things aren't easy.......but they're motivating.
Have you ever been broke and in love?????
And p.s. which dress?..... (so that once my man and I's music is playing on a Visa commercial we can start planning for real.....:)