Wednesday, May 19, 2010

One word.....VEGAS


The last week has been a clusterfuck of awesomeness.

...the weekend ahead is going to be just as radical. I can feel it in my tiny little osteoporosis prone bones (I've really never been a fan of milk, unless it's in the form of cheese.)

The last blog, remember the one where I was broke and eating icecream (I like milk in that form too) caused a little bit of confusion as to what I really DO. Which, I guess I never really talked much about anything other than "freelancing," "gigging" and "drinking wine." Which is a career in itself, if only I didn't have a deviated septum I may have chosen the path of Sommelier, but I digress....

If you've gathered that I'm just a singer who sits on her yoga butt saying inspirational mumbo jumbo between bong hits, while swirling in the crisis that is"twentysomething life"- then I have misled you.

...I mean, I am all of that. I'm just multi-dimensional.

For the last three years I said goodbye to the retail stores, the restaurants, the assistant jobs and I've lived solely on freelance writing and MUSIC. I didn't want to embark on a "CAREER" somewhere because that would be stealing an opportunity from someone who actually wanted it, thus I was doing jobs people don't want to do (i.e. working at Lucky Strike for 4 months and feeding bowling monsters beers and wings. YACK.) And I've done other random things here and there.

Though that would have been great for some, it wasn't for me. I have a sharp tongue and a "three-monther" syndrome, I usually decide when I'm planning on quitting a job the day I start it. Hi, horrible character flaw, but at least it's decisive. I prefer having an end in sight when the job itself makes me want to chug coolant. It's sort of depression prevention, three months, max and move on- thus I have had about 6 thousand jobs since I was seventeen.

When I finally decided to freelance full time I was living in New York City; I worked for Guidespot.com, I freelanced for fashion photographers as an assistant for specific shoots, and I worked as a stringer briefly for OK! Magazine.

After my epic Europe trip, I decided to take on more online work, since my computer allowed me to tour, travel, and eat peanut butter with a spoon in the privacy of my own home- people stare when you do that in an office. I tried it.

NOW, I turned one random blog gig into an ever growing lineup of work. I write for 15+ websites- some of it is steady, contract work- while others are more freelance and not always consistent. I also teach acting and voice lessons. In between waiting for freelance checks to come through after I've spent my contract work money on bills, etc. and blueberry scones (and road trips to Vegas, HI BITCHES!) I make money singing....writing songs, playing with my band and so on. Which is quite often.

PHEW.

I think some of my readers were confused as to why I didn't have a "fucking job...." which I apologize for leaving holes in my story. I'm redefining what I believe a job should be, for me. Not for anyone else, we all have our own needs and requirements for what make us happy.

The thing with my Renaissance life is that it's a beautiful patchwork of things I LOVE to do. Of the things that give me freedom and don't tell me I can only be casual on Fridays. It's a patchwork of things that enhance my creativity, challenge me, and allow me to wake up in the morning and paint pictures of "my feelings" all day if it tickles my little fancy. So useless right? But that's not the point, the point is that if I desire something, I can do it. The ability to change the canvas of MY life is important to me.

I've woven together a perfect little security blanket, that leaves me just uncomfortable enough to continue STRIVING, working hard, kicking my ass and showing up again the next day for more until I'm the absolute best I can be at what I do. I get to call the shots and create new standards for what I expect from myself and my life at any given day......and that right there is perfection to me.

The GOAL itself changes all the time....but I ENJOY the journey, the random jobs, the silly articles, the gigs where you're playing for a bar of 6 people, 3 of which want to kick your ass, while the other three are lost at the bottom of a bottle of Jager. So glamorous right?

IT WORKS FOR ME.

It works for me because I know that this isn't the end...I will never be stagnant. I have too much nervous energy and lofty ideals. And I'm sort of a hotel snob, so clearly I have a future.

The point is this; whatever it is that you dream of doing shouldn't be a "hobby" if you wake up in the morning and you can taste it on the tip of your tongue. If your dream is your screensaver, your "free time," that book you always revisit and live vicariously through, if it's what you'd do if you KNEW you'd make money and succeed at it...then to me, it's something you should FOLLOW.

God, "The Universe," whatever you want to call it, doesn't show up like Will Ferrell in Superstar at the edge of your bed every night giving you "directions" but he/it/she/energy gives you INTUITION. The "inner map," your emotions, your thoughts, are the only things we really have that TELL us something.

If I didn't follow that- what would be the point?

If you believe in what you do, the money will come. If it's worked for one person, why couldn't it work for you?



DO YOU FOLLOW YOU "INNER ROAD MAP?" YOUR INTUITION?




P.S. IF YOU'RE GOING TO VEGAS, I CAN'T WAIT TO GIVE YOU AN ESKIMO KISS.


48 comments:

carissa said...

Seriously, this is the best thing I've read all day. I truly believe in your idea of the way things work. I don't have the singing or lots of freelance gigs at this point, but I do have comedy and a few free lance gigs at this point, and right now I'm riding on that rainbow and not giving up anytime soon. I keep taking jobs that I know I won't get stuck in, for the mere purpose of not wanting to get stuck in a job that I don't want. Thanks for writing this, it made me feel a lot better about my choices as of late!! Have a blast in Vegas and I so much wish I was there!

Herding Cats said...

I'm a teacher, and as we all know, teachers make tons of money, right? On top of that, teachers are totally high in demand right now! Yeah, not really.

I've considered rethinking my career path, but I know in my heart that this is it for me. I loved this post. Thanks.

eemusings said...

I admire you so much for going down that path - I know I couldn't do it.

Sid said...

Inspiring as usual. I'm a project manager. 9-5 each day. Hate the rules and restrictions. Hate that I'm not allowed to wear a mini to work. But I love the pay. I love that I earn enough money to travel each year. I love that I'm constantly learning something. And even if I do end up writing a kickass book, I don't actually think I'll give up my job. There's still too much for me to learn.

Elizabeth said...

That's how life should be! People like you--people who really, really chase after their dreams are so inspiring. I know it can be scary, but I'm sure the highs are higher than anything someone dreading their days could ever experience. I'm happy for you, because you'll always be learning something, and that's what keeps us young.

Johana Hill said...

I wish I were as brave as you are! Seriously, I lose interest in everything I do. Sooner or later. I like changes. They don't bother me. I can easily fall in. But I'm scared of doing things I love. Insecurity plagues my consciousness and I dwell too much on what-ifs.

Hopefully, one day I'll get to meet you. I would like that very much! ;p

Melly said...

That's why I'm self-employed.

My time.
My decisions.
My priorities.
My whims of changing my mind. :)

Mandy said...

I love this post Chelsea! Its excatly what I needed to read this week. I've just made some major decisions to fix what isn't working for me any more and am ready to go off in search of my own adventure.

Have a great time in Vegas!

Miss Alle said...

You are so kickass! Following one's intuition and 'inner map' is truly the only way to feel completely whole and happy. It's about living your life for yourself, not others. Enjoy your trip to Vegas!

Holly said...

It sounds like you've got a pretty awesome system worked out. Especially to someone like me, who also possesses the job-hopping gene. ;-)

Clare said...

Have so much fun in Vegas! I have never been and am racked with jealousy any time I hear about other people going.

I agree about leaving a job as soon as you realize it's a sure recipe for depression.

Jen said...

Such a well-written post, Chelsea! I have a few questions for you though, if you feel like answering. How'd you line up all those contract/freelance writing gigs? What do you do about all those practical things, like health insurance? These are the things standing in my way when I think about freelancing full-time, which I think I would love.

Have a great time in Vegas... I wish I was going, but I think boyfriend might kill me if I flew to Vegas right now...

Nikki said...

I love this. I'm one of those in a job saying WTF? I'm trying to break the mold that is my life but it's going to take a lot of sacrifice. Many you have already made. And I see it is do able. I needed this.

Thank you for your honesty.

J. said...

LOVE this. I'm still trying to figure out exactly what I want to do all day, everyday for the rest of my life... I just hope that when I find what it is I am brave enough to follow my intuition and DO it, rather than stay in a career that I don't want to be in.
Kudos to you, my dear!
XOXO

Sarah said...

I needed to read this, this week! I am trying to hang onto my "government" job for as long as possible and then the boy and I are hitting the highway and moving out of state. I want so bad to pursue the career I want to be in I just have to wait a few more months (there's absolutely no jobs even close to what I want to do in my area).

I admire you for your honesty and for how totally free you are. I hope one day I can finally do what you're doing. :)

Have a fabulous time in Vegas!

Windsor Grace said...

I always really wanted to be a freelance writer, I just don't know how to get into it. Go you! Sounds pretty great, except for the waiting for checks part. I hate that.

Kim said...

I definitely follow my intuition. It's rarely been wrong before.

Be brave! I'm loving it!

Ali said...

Chelsea? I'm just warning you.

I CANNOT WAIT TO MEET/HUG/LOVE ON YOU IN VEGAS.

You've been warned.

Anonymous said...

Chelsea..I love this blog! You're living the life that your Granny didn't have the guts, to live.Never settle for what others expect of you. I know you won't!!
I had a deviated septum too! Only, I did the insecure thing. I had it fixed,and also ,had my nose(which had great character), made smaller, and totally non-descript.My friends commented, that I was prettier before the" nose job".
Have a great and productive time, in LasVegas!!! LoveU way too much! G

Rachael said...

Way to go Chelsea! I totally admire you. I'm working towards living my life the same way. You're right- there are no good reasons NOT to do the things you love in life. Luckily, my hubby is successful enough chasing his passion that I still have some wiggle room while I'm trying to map out all of mine. For the time being, my "schedule" is still a bit sparse, but at least I can rest easy knowing I'm heading in the right direction!!

:)
Rachael
http://itsalongsweetlife.blogspot.com
http://aubreyjune.blogspot.com

Britt said...

Hi Chelsea, I've been a longtime fan of your blog, and this entry was great, as they always are.

Just a question, and I know others have asked also, but how did you get started with the freelance writing for websites? I'm hoping to get into somewhat as well, but I have no idea how to go about it. Thanks!

Rolerkite said...

I admire your kick ass attitude. I'm at a crossroads right now. Deciding to stick with my career or jump into something new and fun that I'm passionate about and let's be embrace my creativity.

It's so easy to ignore those inner intuitions, but it's about time we stop pushing them aside and do something that makes us proud.

▲my• said...

You always write exactly what I need to hear somehow.

I believe wholeheartedly in intuition, and that's how my life has worked so far. Every problem I've arrived at, be it a money problem or otherwise, has been solved via intuition. Not through critical thinking and planning, and more often than not my intuition proves a better solution than any other method I've ever used.

Phoenix said...

I am following my intuition (the selfish intuition, not the "I should do this for that person" intuition) for the first time in years...and it feels DAMN fine. ;)

Robin said...

Just found you through Miss Angie. What an awesome blog. So much to think about. I think that you are absolutely right. If everyone lived their lives by following their gut and trusting their instincts, this world would be a very different place. Reality is what we make it. I am trying to changing the way I see my own. Thanks for sharing this. Truly inspiring post.

Feeling Just Right said...

Thanks Chelsea. That was powerful stuff! Felt very good. Going away now to get some work done! thank you!

Stephenie said...

I love this post. A couple years ago I quit a perfectly great job with great pay and a great title doing perfectly fine design work... so that I could have FREEDOM to do what I wanted. Freedom is absolutely the most important thing to me. Now I work for myself doing design work and also contract work as I work to build a life that involves the MANY things I love to do... write, art, design and change the world. I live each day with a constant sense of urgency that precious time is passing by and I don't want to waste any of it at a 9-5. I would much rather be in the position of freedom I am in now, even with the strategic shifting of money and bill payments each month. It's so worth it. You rock.

tee said...

I dig you. ...I just graduated college and the last thing I wanted was to score some finance job half way through my last semester. You know that one person everyone knows who makes a ton of money but you're not exactly sure what it is they do? That was always my goal. I have far too many interests and too short of an attention span to live life anyway else.

Right now I'm doing real estate and some weeks I'm so broke I've reinvented new ways to eat Ramen. Other days my pockets are so padded I buy strangers drinks. But I make my own schedule. I decide how much I make and when I make it. And I wouldn't have it any other way.

P.S. You rock. Don't change.

woodlandsblonde said...

I think ya nailed it :)

It's awesome to have several passions that make up your job, your everyday life that you love so much.

Ellen said...

I want a clusterfuck of awesomeness!!!

So yeah, I can TOTALLY relate to this. I'm a freelance magazine writer/reporter, but while I'm waiting for checks in the mail, I do various jobs. Everything from retail, babysitting to freelance PR. One time I even helped a lady scan ALL of her hundreds of family photos and put them into albums for a little extra cash. I have no shame in my game. I'm on that constant hustle. BUT since I do a lot of work at home, everyone thinks I have the time to do them favors and exercise for 3 hours a day. I'm busier now (usually) than when I had a FT job. But um yeah, I'm going to go ahead and admit that I'm watching a The Housewives of New Jersey right now! ;)

www.firednfabulous.blogspot.com/

hellotaylor said...

LOVE this :)

She's Dressing Up said...

This post is the best thing I've read in a long time.

Skinny Dip said...

The 9-5 job is totally over-rated.

I quit my steady office gig a year ago to pursue my own patch-work Renaissance life. It was the best thing I ever did. However, I feel like society/people sometimes look down on people who don't want to be locked into some corporate definition of a "career". Sometimes I let this get to me. Thanks for writing this & reminding me that being passionate about what you do is the most important thing.

Have fun in Vegas xo

(@by_simone)

Sophia said...

Wow, I think it's really cool that you make your life so enjoyable for yourself; that you give yourself a lot of room to change if you want to. You are who you want to be, and reading that gives hope that life can be woven to how you want it to be.

Doniree said...

I'm actually pretty good at following my inner road map, though I kind of feel as though I'm on a detour. I'm so glad you found and KILL at what works for you. And SO GLAD we got in a road trip this weekend! I think we should travel together more often :) Ok, I could keep going because I want to tell you eleventy billion things but perhaps I'll just call you later :)

Jessica (Bayjb) said...

Hey gorgeous! It was SO GOOD to finally meet you this weekend. I cannot wait for us to hang out again soon, I hope the drive back went okay :) MWAH!

Bench Watches said...

Great post! I've always wanted to go freelance

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

Jessica- lOVED MEETING YOU! Wish we wouldve had more time to chat and what not, but there's always BiSC 2011 :) xoxo

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

johana- I would love that!

melly- AMEN!

j.- allow that feeling to develop and grow into something, as long as you don't ignore it the answers will come...

windsor grace- it's definitely not too great...but the pay off is usually good...

Britt- Honestly, I just started paying attention to postings, opening, websites, everything and ANYTHING- I applied for every single thing i saw....sometimes I've sent out 30 emails a day for a month and not gotten a single job.....but i kept going. Sometimes making jobs for myself by ASKING a website if they need someone and other times writing for free for a brief period until they start paying, or going the old fashioned route and just applying :) If you want to do it, you can :)

stephenie- sounds like you've got it down right ;) love that.

sophia- thank you :) AND YES, we DO have control and power to create our lives, we aren't just little chess pieces getting moved around.... :)

Marian Schembari said...

You know, I totally didn't need another blog to read. Thanks a lot. However, I'm not officially obsessed with you. Just a warning, darlin'

tgwiy2 said...

"Long time reader, first time commenter."

I fucking love your blog.
Just sayin'.

-Shannon

Chelsea Robbins said...

You put a smile on my face.

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

MARIAN- I know! I read so many too, it's overwhelming- but for the record, I really appreciate you reading, obsession and all, no warnings necessary :)

tgwiy- thank you for delurking, I love that- :) now I know you're there!



chelsea- THANK YOU darlin' and so did your comment!

Devan said...

You're so inspiring, in more ways than one. You just make me want to live an exciting life. I'm still in college but sometimes I feel like my life is destined to be boring and average. Reading some of your posts, especially this one, make me want to fight it even more. I'm a first time reader and poster, just getting into the blogging thing. I stumbled on this by mistake but it is a mistake I'm happy I made.

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

Devan- Aw! I'm so incredibly happy that you did....funny, I was just talking to my boyfriend about not wanting to end up "boring"....it's one of my biggest fears. I have to say, if you fear being boring- you won't be. ;) I'm glad we could cross blogger paths, let us inspire each other to live our absolute best lives :) Thank you for the sweet comment.

blunt delivery said...

girl. i think you'd rock at this!!!

i'll send some votes your way!

blunt delivery said...

ok, that last comment was supposed to be on the OPRAH POST. haha. i don't know how that happened.

but anyway, i love this post. because i am totally the same way! i do all sorts of random jobs that i hate just because they allow me to make enough money to support me in pursuing my dreams! it sucks, but not really. plus you don't have the added stress that comes along with "a real job"

we'll get there. damnit.

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