Monday, June 14, 2010

It all boils down to pointless crafts in the end.....


I got REALLY "life-y" today....

Like, I made a specific trip to Target to buy binders....um, who the fuck buys binders? Children, students, teachers, parents...and people with plans. Funny, because I'm none of those things. I don't have plans, I just sort of have "ideas" that just maybe end up happening when I get bored enough, or some molecules end up bumping up against other molecules causing some fabulous stroke of "luck" and I find myself doing something totally bananas that I hadn't foreseen (story of my life.) The rest of the time, I do things like buy binders, make lists, try to "figure it out and make it happen" and tell people things are going really, really well when in real-time they're actually just kind of stagnant, and I'm fucking bored out of my mind enough to buy BINDERS.

Let me tell you the worst part, you know what I used these binders for? TO SAVE THINGS FROM MAGAZINES. This was just DAYS after I created a budget.... annnd cue laugh track.

Uh..... Hysterical. This magazine thing was sort of like an activity that would be scheduled on an old folks home on "mixer day" It's like,"Hey, old people- busy yourself, with pictures of fancy things that you don't have, and yeah, India would be awesome- but you can't go! mua ha ha."

Sort of like that.

(To make matters worse, I also painted a birdhouse the other day.)

I divided my gigantic binder into 4 sections; food, home, travel, and "pretty things." And now that I'm done bitching about whoever makes activities like this at old folks homes and boredom- if you feel as guilty as I do throwing out magazines....seriously- save the good stuff in a binder, because even though I felt like a gigantic toolbag whilst doing this activity, I'm convinced it'll be useful down the line...and it makes me look organized, which is hilariously untrue.

Look, currently, this binder is entirely unnecessary, I don't live in a permanent residence and I don't even cook- I mean, I will always undoubtedly have a great restaurant recommendation in various zip codes, for various types of cuisine...and I probably have the happy hour schedule memorized, but if you want me to figure out how to "double a recipe," or cook the chicken just right, I start looking for the closest exit sign, or check to see if I still have ovaries. Not to cook...but to you know, see if I evolved from the female species.

I wanted this binder because I wanted to set the best intention that SOMEDAY I will have stability, that allows space for throw pillows, gardening, and pretty platters of lavender infused macaroons.

I don't know if it's that everyone's getting married, there's bridal showers, there's graduations- people are all excited about life, while I'm just collecting ideas to maybe get excited about if all goes according to the "plan." HONESTLY, I'm in dire need of a change of scenery so I'm collecting images of what that "scene" will look like once I decide to make a choice.. And because I have absolutely no clue what that is, all I can think is to build this "magical" life...page by page, in plastic casing, in a binder.

...and that's pretty "Life-y." And you know what scares me about the binders, the old folks homes, and the fact that I already know I'd like to grow poppy's and basil in my "someday garden"....is this;

I'm "dream-y" not "life-y"...and can you be dreamy- and life-y at the same time? Or do you have to choose one? I'm working and living and pursuing, but there's still this nagging voice that says, "there's got to be more than this...right?"

Collecting images of antique roll top desks, persian rugs, ceramic bowls and panzanella recipes means that underneath I have this desire/belief that I'll be "home-y" which eventually means, LIFE-Y and that means eventually I'll have things like rolling pins and required volunteer hours at schools and 6am swim meets and sneaky sex when the kids are asleep. With their father, ideally. And all of that sounds nice....perfectly nice, someday....just not now.

And I guess with all the uncertainty that surrounds my life constantly there's something oddly comforting about knowing somewhere in my home there's this binder full of future life projections....and that I don't have those things RIGHT NOW, because there's other amazing things I need to experience first...and that right now, it's ok to be flailing around with clumsy optimism that I'll have a few million in the bank by the time I'm 30 and that Oprah could be my next boss.


As for now, when in doubt refer to page 27 of "the binder"... there's always a really nice chaise lounge waiting for me....someday.




What does LIFE look like to you??

61 comments:

CuppyCakes said...

My 'life' looks like Lorelai's house from Gilmore Girls. I'm going to be very small-town when I 'grow up'.

Jamie said...

Oh God. This post is eerily similar to my own life. At least we're not alone!

spleeness said...

haha, I love binders!! And painting birdhouses too. I think I belong in an old folks home.

Jen said...

I am also dream-y, and my best advice is be careful about what you put in that binder because... it will probably come true.

Right now, my life looks how I imagined it would when I was 10 years old. And that's fine, but I get the nagging sensation that I'm one of those people that once they get what they want, they realize it's not enough. LOL!

I think your binder is a great idea. Just make sure it keeps evolving with you.

Kristin said...

If you could have seen my wedding binder....The money I spent on bridal mags is shameful. HA!

My dream life would be a mix of a Georgetown DC rowhouse, a bungalow from the historic Hyde Park neighborhood in my Tampa and a Soho loft. Oh and let's throw in a beach cottage straight outta Coastal Living. Sound good? HA!

That one girl said...

Why don't you come do all that lifey stuff at my house because currently I'm just trying to keep my head above the laundry and not kill my husbands plants. A painted bird house would look fabulous. Maybe I'll even feed you!

Nikki said...

My life looks a lot like that. Making plans, gathering pretty images. Ugh I hate trying to be an adult. I want to move home.

I use wishpot.com instead of binders.

Doniree said...

You're awesome, and guess what I did this weekend? I bought foam boards, an exacto knife, and glue from Staples, then 5 magazines (one for each of my "life themes") and finally made an actual, real, first vision board. My LIFE looks like dancer pose and yoga retreats, like getting a book published, like being a nomadic writer, and like being deeply, passionately in love. And finally, it's in front of my face all of the time, so that I can see it.

Much like yours is :) Can't wait to discuss over drinks and dinner tomorrow :)

woodlandsblonde said...

I like that you're planning - I think its a great thing to dream.

Also - 2 of my friends got engaged on the same day 2 weeks ago - it's definitely wedding season, and it definitely makes you put some things in to perspective with yourself, your relationships, etc.

I think there are a lot of things that we have to experience now and that's a-ok! All in due time eh?

Sarah M said...

Girl I know what you mean -- I'm doing the same thing on my tumblr.. just a random hodgepodge of fashion I cannot afford for the house I don't have. Life's a mess sometimes, but we'll fig it out one day.

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

cuppycakes- ah yes, I have that in me too....

jen- you're absolutely right

kristin- oH GOD, don't even get me started on that....it'll be disgusting. lol. I'm a wedding SUCKER.

that one girl- LET'S DO IT!

nikki- what is this you speak of?! must go check it out...

Donireee- ANNNNND yes, this is why our lives intersect ;)

madelyn said...

girl, i love you.

E said...

Hilarious. I'll justify your choice of leisure activities because I'm always down to downsize (i.e. lord knows how many magazines for one binder). I just ditched all my dvd/blu-ray cases for a 250 case logic binder and I'm telling you it's an amazing feeling to shed those pounds and pounds of useless plastic + I can find movies much easier...but I digress.

I'm in my post-undergrad-funk, unfortunately I have no idea what my life looks like... I suppose that's my first problem. Any recommendations to get started? What do you think of building collages or painting birdhouses?

Lindsay said...

I'm feeling pretty stagnant right now (halfway done with school, no job prospects at the moment, not getting married any time soon) and I'm craving change. I needs some excitement, so I guess my ideal life at the moment is full of surprises and possibilities.

JUST ME said...

The BF and I are going to do a dream board because we're so tired of wanting and waiting that we decided to bow down to Oprah and see if she's actually right...

We've officially reached bottom. But if a dream board will help change our lives, we'll CUT those pictures out of magazines!

Anonymous said...

At least you have a binder of things you want to do and such. I'm disorganized, i have magazines with post its attached to the pages of the clothes or accessories i want to buy and i bookmark websites i love including decor, clothes and shoes sites that i aim to be able to afford one day. So i'm very dream-y. Your binder is a great idea!

littlemissjuicy said...

This post has such great timing because I had just started wondering whether by Tumblr-ing I was keeping myself captivated in dreams, and not really embracing life as it is NOW. I fear that I'm going to be stuck in this bubble called "the future" for good, and it will never come.

littlemissjuicy said...

This post has such great timing because I had just started wondering whether by Tumblr-ing I was keeping myself captivated in dreams, and not really embracing life as it is NOW. I fear that I'm going to be stuck in this bubble called "the future" for good, and it will never come.

Robin said...

That is your idea book. Ideas don't have to be for right now. Ideas are endless. You are just collecting them now. You will decide when you want to pluck them out and pull them into your current reality. Or you may decide somewhere down the line that you don't like that idea after all. You can always change your mind. That's the beauty of the binder. Just rip out the page.

Heidi Renée said...

I do the same thing with my Etsy favorites and Amazon wishlist. I have furnished entire imaginary homes and accessorized many an imaginary outfit in anticipation of a time when I have a home I can make completely my own and a time when I actually wear outfits that merit accessories. Until then I just sit here in my oversized t-shirt at my desk I used in high school, wishing for something else.

Colleen said...

You're at least one step ahead of me. I have WANTED to do that for a long time. But the molecules never bumped together.

Ugh, this week is going to drag on forever. I'm determined to accomplish SOMETHING. We'll see . . .

BUT, I love your binder, and I think it's a great idea.

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

just me- don't underestimate....Oprah is always right. lol.

undomestic chica said...

My mom has a binder for hairstyles. It has come in VERY handy for my sister and I when we need to take a picture to the salon.

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

undomestic chica- omg. your mother wins this round.

Chelsea said...

ummmmmmm...............i totally keep a binder full of the same things.

Dancing Branflake said...

I love how creative you are! You are so creative that you can't stop yourself from creating things. I absolutely admire that.

Anonymous said...

Please slap my face and wake me. I must be dreaming again. To learn that i'm not alone in the ever lasting search for the knowledge of what I want and want to do in my life. I have always made this endevor easier by saving the articles of smarter and more experienced men than myself. My school "binder" is in my filing cabinet titled. Tips,Knots and How to. Don't laugh ladies, I read Chealse Talks Smack faithfuly and she is brilliant.

Ivy :: Fusionbox said...

Dear, "perfectly nice" is so not you.

San said...

This is seriously awesome. I'd like to make a vision binder.

Buying binders should be considered way cool! :)

Megan said...

I have totally done this exact "craft project!!" Right now my life looks like one big sparkly pink question mark, but one day I know I'll put those excellent recipes, decorating advice and workout tips I have saved in my binders to good use :)

LiLu said...
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LiLu said...

Oh my GAWD I am tardy. I just commented the wrong comment on the wrong post twice. I quit. And also you are fabulous.

*needs coffee*

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

ivy- you're totally right.

lilu- uh, I forbid you to comment on my wall at 6:30am...period. THAT IS A HELLISH HOUR, hence the comment mistake :) and you are fabulous too. let's have children.

mn said...

ha ha, chelsea, this was an amusing post. not to make light of your binder/ organizing skills, just amusing in and of itself. you can dream, and have a plan and be lifey, you can do it all. i have a magazine cutout that i saved long time ago of some luxury resort bedroom that i want my bedroom to look like one day. when i look at it, it gives me a nice feeling bc i dreamt something for myself. i don't think i could cut out things all the time bc apart from my makeup and product fascination, i don't need to add another obsession, ha. so just one cutout is enough for me. enjoy your summer!

Daisy Dukes said...

Chelsea, you got my vote and I hope you win, girl, you are so positive and inspiring :) I am very visual and would love to see pictures of your binders :)

I am a dreamer, always have been always will be. And I like the trying much more than the getting there. I love growing out my hair and feel stifled when it's "done grown". I love following my dreams but back away when they come true. I guess I've never wanted it to be that simple. I like dreaming better and I have pictures I have saves for years, they still guide me. Does my life look like that? No, it looks like something I have never seen before.

I have noticed thought that the stories i loved, that my life has become eerily like them. So be careful which stories you love. If you want a happy ending in your life, love stories with happy endings!

nicopolitan said...

Delurking here - just to say that stability doesn't come easy. Life is totally chaotic to start with, so when one gets "life-y" I don't see that being any less chaotic. BUT part of the point is to lasso it and try to get it under control.

I mean, that's what we do in our 20's, right? Try to get it all under control?

It's just as important to dream big, but inch by inch the big picture is made. As that's the case, maybe the binders are part of something bigger than just the Avery Corporation.

My point: I say it's a good investment, provided you don't just let them sit around. :)

Paige said...

oh my gosh! i know exactly what you mean!

p.s. thanks for stopping by my blog :) I voted for your Oprah thing--best of luck!!!

Amber's Notebook said...

wow and I thought i was the only one who felt this way loL! Thank for leaving me a comment on my blog and leading me to this fabulous blog of yours.

Marie said...

I love this! You remind me of me. All of that home-y shit sounds and looks so so so nice...However, not for me right now.

In conclusion, I have NO idea what my life will look like. Hopefully something out of a magazine with pretty persian rugs and a balcony. Musts.

Love your blog!

Stephanie said...

I think it's perfectly possible to be "dream-y" and "life-y" at the same time! My life right now is tilted in favor of "life-y" - a house, a career, a dog, hopefully kids within the next couple of years... but I also run my own little jewelry design business, I still spend a fair amount of time playing my collection of muscial instruments (and between May and September perform in a least 2 concerts/month), and - this is key - while I make sure I appreciate my life as it is today, I still spend plenty of time dreaming about what my future will be like. :-)

thoughtsappear said...

I just put myself on a budget, too, followed by me deciding that I needed this, and this, and this. Why does it always work that way?

Lisa Griffin said...

very nice and very true, there is plenty of time to be lifey, and 'life is what happens while you're making plans!' plus don't feel bad about the mag pictures, i used mine to de coup page my coffee table!
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Gracey said...

ahh I do this too. The whole binder thing. Except it's more like folders for me. I think I'm kind of dream-y too, for the time being.

C'est La Vie said...

SO organized haha

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

daisy dukes- thank you dear! and oh yes, I totally agree with everything you said...i notice thing becoming "eerily similar too.

nico- TRUE, I will not let them site around, promise. AND, I love it when you delurk!

paige- THANK YOU! I'm so happy you came by mine!

amber's notebook- loved your blog, thanks for coming by!

marie- A BALCONY. ABSOLUTE MUST. NO DOUBT :)

stephanie- it sounds ot me dear like you're living it....love that :)

Some Style... said...

well, my life! Mm..lets see! would like it be something from "Funny Face" to "Nobody's Perfect (1980) to "Money can't buy me love (80s) hehe...

thx, for stopping by my little bloggings!


http://some-kind-of-style.blogspot.com/

Style, She Wrote said...

Life looks pretty good for us. :) And it seems good for you, too! Kudos on getting your binder -- and getting a head start on your future.

Great blog. Love the header! Thanks so much for stopping by ours and for commenting! xo style, she wrote

Profit From My Closet said...

I have a "Dream Book" That is divided in life sections as well. I love finding pics/articles to save from magazines. Makes me feel like I got my money's worth. Plus I use them for my book. I think what your doing is great.

Becca said...

I love the idea of your binder; i think it's really cool to hang onto things that inspire you. It's the worst feeling to know you've seen something before or be trying to remember a picture and then realize that you didn't hang on to it!!

Kristie said...

I have a BIN full of magazine pages, cutouts, and half-filled binders that are supposed to be all nicely laid out and organized with my piles of ripped out articles, inspirations and "pretty things"... but I haven't even gotten around to finishing that task yet. Someday... maybe? I guess, like you said, when I get bored enough.
I fully support magazine binders. Fully. I just wish I could support my half hearted desire for planning and figuring out lifey stuff as much. Though I'm feeling a little more inspired now!

Elle Sees said...

Life looks crappy right now, but I KNOW it's gonna get better. I'm currently jobless. BOO.

But I love gathering inspiration and putting it in folders--good for you!!! Who knows what it may lead to?

Meet Virginia said...

Wow! Love it!

xx
hotfunkyvibes.blogspot.com

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

some style- that sounds pretty fab, lol.

style she wrote- well thanks so much for stopping by!

I THINK IT'S GREAT THAT SO MANY OF YOU GUYS ARE DREAMERS, COLLECTING, CREATING AND DEFINING PIECE BY PIECE, WITH EVERY PICTURE WHAT YOU WANT YOUR LIVES TO LOOK LIKE- LOVE THAT!

floreta said...

i'm glad i'm not the only one who thinks this way! i don't have plans either, just "ideas"... "thought bubbles", which may or may not formulate into actual things. it might be similar to goals, but not quite... i can't work any other way!

Rachel said...

I buy binders (and other assorted random office supplies) when I really have no need for them. I think I just never got over my love of school supplies.

Now I feel inspired to go buy a binder and put my plans for how I'm going to get a job in DC in it. But who goes and buys a binder on a Saturday night?

Mel said...

Two thoughts -

A. I want to do this too. And...

B. There should really be some sort of giant "I'm NOT getting married at a WAAAY too young age and headed for divorce in ten minutes, but I'm going to trick you into buying me presents now"-type event that those of us not getting married or engaged could do and create vision boards for... sort of like Samantha's "I'm not having a baby" party on "Sex and the City" and when Carrie "registers" for the shoes that someone stole when she went barefoot at a party...

I find myself oddly jealous of the bridal vision/inspiration boards recently...

(And young, happy married folks - congrats. I'm only bitter because I bought wedding presents for and often had to help wedding plan or be amused by wedding plans for people who had NO business even dreaming about marriage, much less dragging everyone else into it....)

ANG* said...

if it makes you feel any better, i've been doing this for a decade. A DECADE. and i have no intention of stopping. its part of me and it makes me feel sane. i don't care how silly any of that is.

LiLu said...

Did some more voting today. Heart you!!!

Jessica said...

Haha! Binders. Too funny. Good way to plan it out at least. I just keep it all up there in my little head. As for how Life looks to me, oddly very little like my life is now. I'm all about living in a foreign country (greece, italy, spain maybe) in a nice little flat.

Annah said...

God that used to be a long time ago. Now I just print all my pictures from online and throw my magazines away :( Have gotten very "uncrafty" as I've gotten older.

Sophia said...

I really like this post. Life to me looks uncertain; not concrete. Life seems malleable, and it is once we settle on a decision. Keep being "dream-y"!

xo, Sophia

 
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