Monday, May 2, 2011

Where I put up an unnecessary "Facelift" picture- because, I couldn't find a good picture for, "What should I do?"


Oh goodness have I been thinking about LIFE......take a seat.


The other day Chelsea Talks Smack, the entire blog was deleted for approximately, 2 hours.
The entire thing.


Before I delve into how dramatic that ACTUALLY was for me, I should probably mention a couple things; A. I don't back anything up, likely because I run on a combination of faith meets head in the sand and B. I'm entirely inept when it comes to computers. I know, I know, I'm "online," but not in the way that most bloggers i.e. technically savvy people are. I write the blog, I click publish. I meet my muse, we do our dance, we share.

I don't pay attention to things that happen in "tech" (read: I don't particularly care), I don't "update my look at feel," or organize my social outlets- I don't network, I mean I. don't. network. I don't make buttons, or return emails promptly- I generally have a hard time treating my art like my business, because it's like trying keep your eyes open during an orgasm to make sure you don't miss anything- when really all you want to do it have the orgasm, because it's so lovely. The problem is creativity is my life, so my life has to be my business.

While, I've been a basically a fulltime web/blogger/internet chick for the last six years, I'm a little burnt out on the whole thing, EXCEPT for my blog- which really should have been the focus from the beginning; my voice, my brand, my creativity.

Which means, I should stop flipping off the internet with one hand while love petting it with the other.

All that to say; when my blog was suddenly erased entirely from my life, I realized- I better start taking this shit a little bit more seriously. Hey yo.

My blog in the darkest of times, or the most LOST I've been, has been the one. constant. steady. thing. When My Love and I broke up, it was the only reason I didn't retreat into woodsy area twenty miles off a dusty road to be eaten by wildebeests and rabid Praying Manti' (Mantises?) whatever (ooo good one, dramatic Chels, really nice)- my blog has seen me from Los Angeles, to New York City, from the Road to the Roots and everywhere in between, it's like a thumb, neglected, but necessary. As she then thinks of all the things one could do with only four fingers....::walks around, picking things up::

I'm starting to wonder if perhaps there needs to be a rebirth of Chelsea Talks Smack....

....after almost losing her completely, I recognize how important she is to me, but that she needs a fresh coat of paint. The thing about paint is that there's so many different things you can do with it- I want to remain genuine to the VOICE of CTS, but maybe there needs to be some added detailing;


There are days when I consider scraping the whole thing all together, becoming a Hare Krisha or a children's book author and giving up the web entirely..... (until eventually I'd end up writing a blog about giving up blogging) hm.


More love talk, more inspirational juju? Pictures, videos? More grab-life-by-the-balls-and-twist-it? Less of that? These are the questions that I'm throwing around in my head.

I read once that Anna Wintour's greatest quality she said is decisiveness. Looks like if I want to be taken seriously, I need to make some more serious decisions.



WHAT "serious" DECISIONS DO YOU HAVE TO MAKE?

































52 comments:

magdalena viktoria said...

have a rebirth--have a reinvention. you're not static as a person--keep going, try new things..but keep all your goodness.

xx

Please Don't Eat With Your Mouth Open said...

As long as it doesn't involve getting x amount of other people to write posts.

Guest blogs = my pet hate.

Just be you. Forced blogs are the worst blogs.

(Fact)

Clare - Never Niche said...

I always feel like such a creeper when I'm one of the first few comments on a post, like I've been hitting refresh over and over waiting for a new post. I promise I haven't!

I would love more pictures/video. I've been thinking a lot about how I want my blog to progress and I think I need to grow some balls and be a little more personal, share what scares me, and so on. You're so connected to some of the best bloggers out there - I have no doubts that people would bend over backwards if you wanted a new header, layout, etc. You could launch your new look to celebrate BiSC!

Happy Monday. <3

The Remarkable (Rambunctious) Redhead said...

I gave up blogging for over a year. I missed it a lot.

I have to freaking decide what I'm going to do with my whole life. I'd love it if I could be a full-time blogger, maybe someday.

Tatiana said...

I DEFINITELY agree on the whole "not treating my art like a business" deal. I've only recently started blogging and honestly, all the networking, all the constant needs to revamp, all the ADVICE for how to create a sustainable blog is really, really overwhelming. If you're not trying to find ways to create new and better content, then you need to be spending your time trying to make your website more awesome and meet more people.

Frankly, the whole thing is really exhausting.

So I guess it really depends on WHY you blog in the first place and if that reason still exists.

But re-designing your page might help to get back into the spirit of your blog because you've invested time and money and energy into it. :D

That one girl said...

Ready for my brilliance? Do what you want to do.

Seriously.

I could care less what a blog LOOKS like. If the words are true... or fun, I'm in.

Just be yourself. That is perfect!

Tish said...

um how do you back up a blog? lol you're not the only inept one apparently!

Rachel said...

My blog is in limbo as I decide if it will fit in my new life. Even if it stays alive I've alread taken 95% of it down (347 posts? I think I left 10 up).

I have no clue what to do.

Jen said...

Good luck with the blog, Chels! I want to "reshape" mine as well, but I'm not really sure where to start, so it never gets done.

My next serious decision is where I want to take my career. I need to make some big, serious decisions or risk remaining stagnant. I've been residing in "dreamer" world for the last two years in terms of professional life: imagining all of these cool jobs I think I would love to have... but I haven't done a darn thing to move toward any of them.

Kick in the a$$ needed!

Kaitlin - GoldfinchAnchor said...

I'm learning slowly that blogging about grabbing life by the balls requires actually going out and grabbing life by the balls. It's something I have a hard time with, especially when surroundings are so conducive to getting all complacent and stuff.

As a compulsive start over-er, I feel ya. Sometimes you just need to shake it off and reinvent.

The Lewicutt's est 2006 said...

I think I already know the answer to my serious decision. I love my job, but always come back to hating the corporate atmosphere, especially in finance, where, in some companies, they don't use women as an advantage....

Chelsea said...

A blog reinvention would be fun-- it's just another way to make you even more excited about blogging. Pictures & videos would be nice, but honestly, you're one of very few bloggers I know whose writing can just stand on its own. So many bloggers depened on lots of photos of pretty things and "inspiration", but I think people come to your blog for real stories and feelings that they can relate to.

Good luck figuring out your new direction! I'm sure whatever you choose for you blog will be amazing!

Anonymous said...

You are genious..Just accept that things are always going to feel a bit odd. It's hard when every thing is experienced profoundly, through your pores, bumped off your heart and dropped into your soul.I'd think anyway.But, I cry over nothing, because I'm afraid I won't be loved or loving enough.. Remember how much people's senses are sparked, when they read your Blogs.You're a lit match around gasoline.
I Love You.."Ms.Bean".. You're a cure for everything Blah, in the world. Don't burn out the ferociousness of YOU..Who cares about technology, as long as it serves you, it works.

Susan Pogorzelski said...

"My blog in the darkest of times, or the most LOST I've been, has been the one. constant. steady. thing."

This.

My blog is an extension of me -- the deeper parts of me where I go to figure out this thing called life. It changes just as I change.

So I think the question to ask yourself is...is your blog an extension of your own self? Can you feel yourself changing and thus the need for change? Do you want your blog to change with you?

Good luck! :)

Brooke said...

SO sorry that happened!! I kinda did the same thing with my blog by revamping it and making it MINE. I can't wait to see what you come up with and I hope that never happens to you again! ha

Sara Shoemaker said...

haa love your blog! It's so witty and hilarious. And whatever you do just stay true to yourself :)

House of Shoes

Eliza Jane said...

My serious decision right now is moving to Australia to be with the man I love. Even though we've never dated. Although he's been my best friend since we lived together 8 years ago, and only recently discovered we've both been in love with each other for the past 8 years but didn't know/think the other person felt the same way. It'd really be quite romantic if it wasn't such a pain in the ass.

Stephenie Zamora said...

Just keep being YOU and everything else will sort itself out. :) Seriously... mess with the blog's look and feel, but don't mess with the creative genius that freely flows out of you. If blogging sporadically and without a "set" type of post is how you flow best, then keep at it. Shape up the CTS brand in other ways if you feel like things need a fresh coat of paint or a different direction. xo

Vanessa, Take only Memories said...

Thanks for visiting my blog :)

I can imagine how distraught you must have been when your blog got lost! That's terrible! So what changes are you planning to make?

Dree said...

You're kidding - blogs can be deleted?! I thought that was a myth! I can't imagine the freak out you must have gone through. Wowza.

I think that it's great to do a little bit of a reshape if you want to. I love your blog the way it is right now, but it's always great to give your blog a little facelift now and then. Or if you're like me you do it every other week because you're indecisive. Keep it to what you like and you'll be golden!

Shane said...

OK, so now you've scared me into going home early and backing up my blog. Thanks for reminding me!
What serious decisions do you have to make? I don't think you have to make any, you seem to be doing fine as it is. If not, then decide to do something else and then do it.
It's SOOO easy to do that, I know.
I hate deciding, so anyway I decided to move my desk and then make popcorn and watch something crappy on TV and eat ice cream. That's 4 decisions at once.

Paul said...

You nearly lost this entire blog? Oh crap....Thank Goodness you got it back. I need SOMETHING to make me laugh in my work lunch breaks!
Don't you quit, girl!

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Bonnie said...

I hate forced blogs. I write what i want to write. Other people can suck it.

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Twitter: @GlamKitten88

Kirby said...

"Serious decisions?" Ha...Oh just kidding...there are so many, I just choose to ignore them for the time being. Looking forward to the re-thinking of your blog. Thanks for stopping by ours!
xoxo
Alexa
www.theshortandthesweetofit.com

Krystal said...

what happened to your blog??? mine was shut down for TWO DAYS!

Tanaia Jewel said...

I love the way you write! ITs very interesting and keeps you reading :)

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

Bonnie- i hear ya, so do I- just wondering if mine needs more/less- it'll always be "me" regardless, but everyone can use a little boost every now and again....

Melissa: Write it in Lipstick said...

oh man I would have been freaked if that happened. And I agree with everyone just be you :)

Beka said...

i love this part: "creativity is my life, so my life has to be my business."
hmmm. makes me think.

A Casa da VĂ¡ said...

Oh never thought of backing up blog either... but really like the way you write and the way you see things, so please don't stop blogging!

I also decided to take my blog more serious... but also investing a lot of my time in a new field, so hard to do it all!

Hugs & kisses from Rio!
http://acasadava.blogspot.com

Alli (One Pearl Button) said...

Oh my lord, that is TERRIFYING. I must look into how to back up a blogger blog immediately, because I've never done it. Thanks for the warning!

Whichever direction you go with the blog, just make sure that you are happy about it. And remember, a blog isn't an animal, plant, spouse, or small child. You can do whatever you want to it, and it will be just fine (even stepping away for awhile!). Do what you love!

Brynn {chartreuse and a twist} said...

Well, I have only just found you...you can't go now! Truly, though, you have amazing talent and make people laugh and think about things a little differently (I can tell this by just what I have read so far). We creative types do need pretty constant refreshers...so, refresh, refocus and ALWAYS be true to yourself.
p.s. Thanks for stopping by my blog!

Miss Caitlin S. said...

you're such a great writer. Your wordsy posts are some of the few that I don't even have to tell myself to keep reading. I don't know what to tell you to do, I have always liked your vibe and I'm sure that won't change, even if you do a bit.

D said...

I'm not really sure where to start.

I got the sense that maybe this was a slice of your mind contemplating giving up blogging, but even though you mentioned it I can tell you're not going to do that. I'd offer a very long list of reasons that that would be a flat out tragedy, but there are some 30 comments up there full of longing and respect and empathy that say everything.

Your ability to communicate as a writer is something most people only dream of, the way they wish they had written their favorite songs. It's the artistic way of communicating your experience in a way that justifies and celebrates everyone else's. Every moment of your life is artistic.

Think about how the writers you love make you feel. I know you consider that feeling to be one of your favorites.

People feel that way about your writing.

Of course a facelift is in order...your LIFE has had a facelift...a number of them, and those facelifts were a voyage towards someone who is very obviously stronger, happier, and closer to her Center than the girl who wrote this blog a year ago, two years ago.

Paint The Walls.
For sure.

Capture the thing that this post and its comments are in a pose that's becoming...what you're creating when you write here is the thing that matters.

Josie said...

I seriously need to start backing up my posts -- it makes me super nervous when I hear stories like this! I think you should go ahead and do WHATEVER you want!
xo Josie
www.winksmilestyle.com

:: Lavender's Green :: said...

Great post! How frightening to have your blog deleted. I'd be so upset if mine was deleted.

I hope you make your decisions and are happy with your choices :)

Thanks for visiting my blog :)

x Jasmine

Gnetch said...

I read this post last night but I didn't know what to say. Then I saw this tweet tonight from @TheNotebook and I remembered you:

REMEMBER: When writing the story of your life, don't let anyone else hold the pen. It's your story, you write it.

xo

Stacey said...

I think sometimes we overthink things as bloggers - what with all the introspection we're constantly doing! I say, be you. That's why we keep reading. I think your writing and expression stands on its own, but of course pictures are always nice. Write what you feel, write for you. Don't worry about your audience, because we're already supportive of your voice.

Julie {love, julie} said...

Oh my gosh, I can't imagine the stress of having everything deleted like that! Makes me think I should learn how to back things up :)

PorkStar said...

I just found your blog, the title of it is what made me stop browsing and read. I like it : )

The only serious decision I have to make quite often is to make sure I get back to work right after posting.

Not like I post during work hours but... eh, who am I kidding.

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

alllll, ALLLLLL of the advice and words of wisdom and incite here are TRULY, GREATLY, APPRECIATED HERE. THANK YOU. THANK YOU. THANK YOU.

hellosweetworld said...

I think it's perfectly natural to have a 'blog-life crisis' every once in a while. Just continue to be yourself and post what you want. After all, you're not here to please everyone, you're here to please yourself. If you need a break, take a break. Life happens sometimes.....

Stolen from Grandma said...

i really ought to back things up too! your post has basically convinced me :) I can't even imagine losing my whole blog, and i completely understand where you're coming from about it being a constant thing to enjoy in your life. Good luck with whatever you decide, i will be sure to check back and check how you're blog is developing!! xxx

Portugal said...

Good luck getting people behind this one. Though you make some VERY fascinating points, you’re going to have to do more than bring up a few things that may be different than what we’ve already heard. What are trying to say here? What do you want us to think? It seems like you can’t really get behind a unique thought. Anyway, that’s just my opinion

Amber said...

I gave up blogging for a while and missed it. It's kind of addictive!

This is a cool blog and my first visit. I'm not sure what serious decisions I need to make yet, but I am seriously considering starting to back up my stuff!

Anastasia said...

I agree with "not treating my art like a business" too.
Blogging is all about being yourself and describing adventures for your friends and family.
At least thats what I do...
xo

www.natbeesfashion.blogspot.com

Daina @ New York State of Mind said...

Wow, I would have panicked if my whole blog erased. My external hard drive which had the past eight years of my life saved on it died last week. Just died. It was heartbreaking. So, looks like the lesson of the week is back stuff up! Excited to see where your blog goes, good luck with what you decide! And thank you for checking mine out!

Daina
http://daina-newyorkstateofmind.blogspot.com/

polkadotpeticoat said...

very interesting I love all the comments you have received and all the different opinions isn't blogging great!

ElementalGrace said...

Hey ... long time lurker, rare commenter but I had to say something here. You inspired me to start blogging, inspired me to have the courage to speak my own truth and that's a really beautiful thing.

You've got to follow your own path and your own truth but as someone else said, you've changed and grown over the years, so why shouldn't your blog. Do what tickles you and what makes you happy, whatever that may be but it would be a real shame to lose you.

Colleen said...

I find decisiveness to be highly overrated. I find most things I lack to be highly overrated.

Chase said...

About a month ago, I lost The Drift and the time away has given me the chance to contemplate a rebirth and launch a new identity.

Everything must die before it lives, right?

 
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