Thursday, September 1, 2011

IT'S ALL GOING TO BE OKAY SUGARPLUMS.


Photo Cred: Le Love


It’s important to sit. To waste time. To give your thoughts breathing room.

To having “wasting time” be a goal.

To feel the weight of it all. To feel sadness and aches, for no reason....when everything is perfect. And then, to be jolted like a slingshot into joy when it flashes across you. Wildly, unexpectedly...the surprise guest, the kind you wear your party dress for...hoping they’ll come again soon.

Bask. Mope. Drag your feet, deliberately.

Nimbly tracing, with the tips of your fingers, all the way to the end of the rope, where the fraying first began- inch, by inch. Don’t skip a moment.

Pace. Play it on repeat. Pay attention to the detours and not just the destination.

Feel sorry for yourself, silently. Ride it out.

Demand tears to come, not “if necessary,” but always necessary. Insist on hammering it out.

Lay on the floor, for an indefinite amount of time. In every room of the house. Sit in the shower....draw smiley faces on door and watch them drip.

Drift off. To sleep. To that room in your brain that you haven’t explored yet. To nostalgia, where you've convinced yourself "things were better."

Watch yourself cry in the mirror. Notice a new way in which your face moves and wonder how many people know that specific way in which it moves and think of it any time they hear your name. Associate yourself with that face....tell yourself a sad story. Imagine conversations, that haven't happened.

Stare into your coffee cup. Let your eyes tell a story, so you don't have to keep repeating it....your brain already does enough of that.

Do less for awhile.

Regret the Tipping Point. You know there would be one....eventually... you just rolled the dice.

There's never enough time, is there?

Drink too much. Have a marathon day. Do less for awhile, so you feel less guilty about DOING IT ALL.

Admit you need tending. Forgive yourself, for knowing all along.

Ignore nothing.

Wake up. Put your hands, over your heart...... and remember, It's all going to be okay. Every single thing.








31 comments:

Summer said...

Yes. It is.

Grace Boyle said...

I love the part about allowing time to waste time. It's usually my favorite part of my week :) Love you Chels.

Anonymous said...

Okay..I get it..YOU are really freakin/screamin TALENTED..
Sure wish you would concentrate on that un-usually different and inspirationally beautiful VOICE.You can't do it WITH anyone, because no one is even close enough to be good enough to sing with you.I can't enjoy any of the best,because the BEST isn't out yet.I adore you..:O)

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

Gracie- Thank you Gracie love, wasting time is IMPERATIVE...we need to do it more often, with less guilt.

Stephenie Zamora said...

Chelsea, I am SO in love with this post. Mostly because I just did this. I spent a whole week wasting time, not working out, eating the wrong foods throughout Ally Mcbeal marathons, thinking, sitting, crying... All the things you're not supposed to do and all the things that "should" only perpetuate the funky funk. Except that suddenly, I felt better. I felt stronger. I felt more equipped to tackle LIFE and make the changes I need to make. It will all be okay, love it. Love you! Thank you for always sharing your heart and soul with us. xo

Ashley said...

Thanks for the reminder -- This is something I've been working on lately. Feeling freely and fully =)

Beautiful writing!

doniree said...

<3 this, especially this: "Admit you need tending. Forgive yourself, for knowing all along."

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

Stephenie- atta girl!!!

Rollercoastess said...

Amen! I used to fill my days with things to do , scarcely leaving myself a minute to live in my own thoughts. On the bus, I'd read; while I cooked, I'd Skype loved ones; waiting for a 2 minutes for the dryer to finish seemed like wasted time. I'm not sure what changed, but one of my favorite things is just sitting in silence and losing myself in my labrythian mind. Nothing sweater!

Chelsea, I really like your blog and style! Thanks for sharing! And check me out if you are curious and get a chance: http://projectbreakingupwards.blogspot.com/

ameena said...

yes. just yes. love all of this. i need to stop feeling so guilty for wasting time. it's never wasted time.

Bookish.Spazz said...

My gosh. I need to print this out and read it every single day of my life.

jadorehardcore said...

You are a gorgeous writer!!
I think sometimes people forget to let the 'nothing' be important... or they are scared to let it have to much value because thats "counter productive" to what we are taught.

Love it. Lovely reminder...

Anonymous said...

Wow...I totally needed this! I look forward to your posts every time! I check every morning when i get to work, drinking my first cup of coffee. Always hoping there is a new post. It's amazing to think someone Ive never even met just "gets me". Everything you said hit home with me and I needed it today, more than anything. thank you!

Nicole said...

I love this so much.

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Thanks for these encouraging words.

Melissa said...

This is lovely. Thank you. :)

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

rollercoastess- TOTALLY. My Love and I were just talking about this and how we feel like we never let ourselves NOT multitask, it's always about a million things at once.

ameena- xo :) Exactly, it's never wasted time.

Bookish Spaz- SO DO I! haha....sometimes, I write a blog and then look back at it and think, "that was not me speaking...that was 100% my higher-self TELLING myself what to think instead of the current state of being that I'm in." If that makes any sense....

jadorehardcore- thank you! Love the name ;)

Anonymous- comments like this make me want to write more, thank you :)

Autumn said...

It took me until this last year to realize I needed to give myself time to do thing unscheduled and let myself relax.

Now I'm realizing I have to do fun things no on a to-do list because no one else will do them for me (and partially because it makes me happier). I'm grateful for a husband that reminds me to take care of myself and relax.

Miss Sassy Pants said...

This is perfect advice. =)

Davinia said...

I love this post so much. YES.

PinkBow said...

wise words. sometimes it is just nice for someone to tell you everything will be ok.

Elizabeth said...

thank you! bookmarking this for future and constant reference.

Fizzgig said...

I LOVE IT! It is so very important to allow ourselves to just "BE" and not worry so much about what we should be doing, or what other people are doing at this stage in their lives.

It's ok to just let go, and feel what we feel, and be OURSELVES!

Thank you for this post! Its important to be reminded that everyone has these moments!

Sonja said...

Aww that's such a good message. I actually felt very guilty for wasting so much time this weekend. But it's true, sometimtes you just need it . Thanks for popping by my blod, and your comment :o)

Monique said...

this is lovely so important to remember all of these points. makes for a happier life!

The Many Colours of Happiness said...

I love this!!! We so often put so much pressure on ourselves to be perfect, it's refreshing to read something that gives us permission to breathe. Just what I needed to read today!

Jaya J said...

Beautiful piece !

ana said...

i love your blog. its sorta similar to mine actually? (your superior in writing i must admit)

www.thebookisaworld.blogspot.com

ana

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Anonymous said...

I had to write this out word for word so that I could etch it into my head...so refreshing, life affirming, uplifting and at the same time profoundly relaxing. The power of words, Chelsea, your words.Thank you for sharing your peace with us.

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